Thursday, September 20, 2012

I'm still here!!!!!

Hey all! I'm still here I promise! I am so behind in updating that I don't know where to even begin! I've been posting a bit over on just abou my surgery and all. But once life slows down, I'll get this page back up and running! Just know: Kids are doing great We moved and love our new house in Smyrna Going back to school in your 30's is not as easy as it seems Life is good Love you all!

Thursday, June 28, 2012

Place in this world...

The wind is moving
But I am standing still
A life of pages
Waiting to be filled
A heart that's hopeful
A head that's full of dreams
But this becoming
Is harder than it seems
Feels like

I'm Looking for a reason
Roaming through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Not a lot to lean on
I need Your light to help me find
My place in this world
My place in this world

If there are millions
Down on their knees
Among the many
Can you still hear me
Hear me asking
Where do I belong
Is there a vision
That I can call my own
Show me

I'm Looking for a reason
Roaming through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Not a lot to lean on
I need Your light to help me find
My place in this world
My place in this world

I absolutely love this song.... I have been thinking about it a lot as I've been searching for my own place in this world.
 I mean- I know I am supposed to be where I am. With the husband that I have, my children... even my dog!
That is my place.
 But I know there is more to enhance this experience we call life. Which is why this yr, my life is taking so many twists and turns. And while they may be difficult and scary and hard, they are supposed to be part of my world. Yesterday in the mail, I got this:

So.. it's really happening!!! By mid July, I will once again be a college freshman! Only 14yrs later! And I'll be enhancing our financial future (well not by much) and my way of life.

I also got a all this morning from Bobbie at Vanderbilt Weight Loss saying that all my requirements have been faxed off now to my insurance and they have 15 days to respond.
So by mid July, I will have a date of when I'll be physically changing my life.

But the one thing that will never change is my heart. The love I have for family. For others. And increase the love I have for myself. And hopefully won't change the love others have for me. And now... I will never forget!

Sunday, June 10, 2012


I found a new obsession!!!

I hosted my first Thirty-One party not too long ago and completely fell in love!!!
What is Thirty-One?

After my party, I realized I just couldn't get enough. Of course we all know my bag obsession! But what really drew me to this company is the bags aren't only super cute but they are SO roomy, extremely durable, easy to clean and you can personalize them!!

So I decided... why not join them?!?!?! So here I am.

I swore after selling Tastefully Simple for several years that I would never do direct sales again.  So for me, this says a lot because for one- I'm cheap!  And two- I hate being pressured and to pressure.  But for me, these bags are perfect for everyday use and for organization!! 

So check them out!!!
You can always shop under any party I have going on (those won't charge or ship until the party closes), or just shop on your own.  Or email me and I'll hook you up!!

Oh did I mention that when I hosted my party, I got $90 in free stuff, 2 items half off AND an exclusive item for a huge discount??? 

I got this rolling thermal and I LOVE it!!
And my party was online so I hardly had to do anything!  So for now, I'm only doing online parties with my hosts.

Every month, they have a cool special going on.  This is this months:

PS: I just bought Reese this thermal with his name on it because I'm tired of him loosing his lunch bags!! Rielly will be getting one to next month since it'll be on special and they both are getting backpacks with their names on them! I'm excited!!


“It doesn’t matter where you are, you are nowhere compared to where you can go.” -Bob Proctor

And I am ready to go somewhere!

Typically I hate change. I avoid it however and whenever I can. Until lately.
I'm embracing change. Realizing that no matter what, the ONLY THING constant is change!

So this year I will be changing.

Changing my diet and my weight because I am going to be having gastric bypass surgery. You can keep up with that at

Changing my routing since I will be going back to school to begin my several year journey towards getting a teaching degree.

Changing our vacation norm since we are taking the kids on a cruise with us next month rather than going along.

Changing.. well hell I don't have much left to change so maybe I'll change my hair color, get some new jewelry, definately smaller clothes, etc... but the above two will change my life completely!

So CHANGE... here I come! I should say we because these will affect my family. So CHANGE... here WE come!

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Hey friends! Vote for my kids would ya??? We could use the money for summer clothes! You can vote once everyday :)

Friday, April 20, 2012

My new baby!!!

And I love her!
What the hey is it you say?? Well I'll tell you-

The Silhouette CAMEO® is an electronic cutting tool for personal use. Like a home printer, it plugs into your PC or Mac® with a simple USB cable. However, instead of printing it uses a small blade to cut paper, cardstock, vinyl, fabric and more up to 12" wide and 10 feet long. The machine also boasts a quiet motor and the ability to register and cut printed materials.
Why do I like it? Because for $18/mo, I can get $150 worth of images (.99each) and unlike a cricut cartridge, I pick which images I want. I can cut ANY font I have on my computer. I can create images through the program, print it and then have my cricut cut it out perfectly. I can cut vinyl of any length. Etc Etc Etc.
Here's a few projects I made with it. Keep in mind, I've only had it a few weeks and haven't played too much but it really is fun!

Invites for K.B.'s sons graduation brunch
Easter baskets for the kiddos
My very first project


I'm still here!
I miss all my blogging friends.
Life gets busy... I shouldn't let that stop me from blogging though.

I have started to blog on

Not really about running anymore tho.
But I'll be on here more often and get better abt sharing my life with the world!

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Letting Go

Confession: I was on a dark road last night driving home from dinner with friends and I was looking at my phone. It wasn't like I wasn't watching the road or anything but I'll call this awful,illegal, and dangerous multitasking. Not sure why but I just put it down suddenly and looked up. A guy was walking down this road wearing black and had I not been looking at that exact moment, I would have not seen him and hit him. There was no voice in my ear saying look up. No powerful kick. But it was something giving me that feeling to look up. I could have hurt someone last night. He was stupid to be walking down that road but still.. it would have been bad.
Why am I saying this? Because I believe this was one of those moments that I truely felt I was being protected by an unseen power. And so was the idiot wearing black on a black road at almost 11pm.
And why was I?
Me- who has basically all but given up believing that God is truely mindful of me. Me- who has pretty much let those I attend church with affect my desire to attend anymore.
Me- who has many times had such anger in my heart that I questioned all I have been taught and almost threw it all away.
Why would I have been saved from a lifetime of regret and flashbacks and knowledge that my decisions not only changed my life but someone elses for the worst?

I don't know.

But I was.

And it is a kick in the pants. It's time to get things back in gear.
Time to stop letting other peoples choices and actions affect me.
Time to be okay that I'm not accepted by many people I worship with.
Time to be okay with the fact that I possibly will never feel another child growing in side me.
Time to be accountable for my own thoughts and actions rather than blaming others. Time to be okay if people don't like me and stop harboring my own feelings of dislike.
Time to hand things over to God and let Him help me with my time.
Time to LET IT GO!

As I was thinking about this this morning and thinking about the things and people and friendships I have lost lately and the feelings I have felt, this song kept coming into my mind.
I hope I can do this.. because it is time.
And it is freeing!

I can still recall the hour
my father told me it was time
to let it go.
Though it's mended wing had made it sing
He said the bird I cared for was not really mine,
Let it go.

"Letting go," he said, "seems to break your heart.
Though it will heal it feels slow to start."
Though the pain burned within me so,
He held me tight so I could let it go.

Years have passed since then,
And so has he, but I still hear his words,
"Let it go."
There's so much of life that can't be lived
When you're still holding on to hate and anger deep inside.
Let it go.

Letting go opens up the heart.
There is a new day hungry to start.
You can't change what has hurt you so,
But you will heal if you can let it go.

All that's wrong in your life
Let it go.
All that is worth saving is love.
Love will hold you tight,
Love lifts the burden,
And love shines the light.
Only love nourishes us so;
If it's not love, simply let it go.

**Michael McLean

I just read this passage that was written in another blog from the book "The Continous Atonement" and I found it appropriate for what I need to remember:

God is bound to love me. It is his nature to love perfectly and infinitely. He is bound to love me – not because I am good, but because He is good. Love is so central to his character that the scriptures actually say, ‘God is love” (1 John 4:8, 16; emphasis added). … Not only did He require me to have faith and confidence in Him, but He is required to have faith and confidence in me. … God and Jesus are bound to believe in me – in my potential and possibilities – even when I don’t. God is bound to be as close to me as He is to any of His children because He is a perfect parent.

He believes in me and that I can be strong again.. because of this, I own it to Him to believe in myself!