Friday, February 27, 2009

Sad Truths

It's time for a change. A big change. And only I can make this change.

I am unhealthy
I am overweight
I am pre-diabetic because of my weight and at risk for other health issues
I am out of shape
and it sucks!

So knowing these sad and ugly truths, it's now time to finally do something about it once and for all! I went and talked to a personal trainer at Body Plex who actually sat down with me and went over all the different factors I need to work on and what I can do, etc. And she was very sincere and actually WANTED to help me. I actually for once have a little hope that I can succeed-- I just need that little (okay.. BIG) push. So I'm making a little (okay.. BIG) investment and I'm going to work with her for 6-8weeks one on one and see if that give me that motivation and tools I so desperately need to get myself on track and eventually where I want to be. I'll be using my piano money for the next while to pay the money back but I'm sure it will be worth it. I want to make this change.
My first training session in next Thursday. Wish me luck!!!

Monday, February 23, 2009

Random Cute Pic of the Day

This is my friend Seth. His mom is one of my favorite people in the world so by association, he is my little friend whether he likes it or not. Even though he is a little younger than Rielly, I do plan to get them hitched up someday.
She sent me this pic of him in a little tux she found at one of our favorite consignment stores and I could just eat him up! So this is my random cute picture of the day... Enjoy!

One of my hobbies...

After many hrs over 2 days, I finally got my crap.. I mean CRAFT room in a walkinable condition. Seriously.. it was bad! But now I can go in, kinda find what I'm looking for and then get a few things done!
So for those who saw the before room, prepare to be amazed!!! The rest of you will probably still see a massively chaotic room. But just trust me- it's 100% transformed. Sad I know!
Let's take a tour shall we?

Here is my punchyard. There's 6-7big ones on each side and a bunch of small ones. And I NEED them all!
My friend Danyel turned me on to Bellas. I started with 1 and now have a drawerful! They are super cute stamps..

Yeah I have a lot of eyelets. This drawer is full and believe it or not, I just went in on more with my sister. Who needs this many? I guess I do.. for something! Anyone need and eyelet.. or a thousand?

At one point, this was a good sized bedroom until I came in! Look-- there's a floor!!!!!! I'm not an organized person so things are still here and there and everywhere but I know where my chair is and my table. What more can a girl ask for? And yes.. thanks for my dear friend Brenda, that is a Twilight poster on the wall. *sigh*

Here's just a few extra drawers full of... stuff

and all my ink pads

Can't have ink pads without stamps right? These are my stampin up sets. I actually pruned this down.. I have a lot on the otherside of the room that I'm listing on ebay

paper.. paper paper paper!!! Need I say more??? I'm a stampin up cardstock snob though. Oh and bazill.. that's good stuff too

Here's my Valentines Bella card just for good measure.

Kris (HI KRIS!) asked me for ideas for Valentines treats which made me have to think of what I'll do for the kids class so here's what we made. I know Kris also made some super cute ones of these as well! We're crafting together from different sides of the country! Anyways Reese stamped and I assembled.

The End!

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

He's been crowned!!!

I have to admit.. my son has my terrrrrrrible teeth! Poor guy! At 6yrs old, by the time this is over, he'll have 4 crowns, 2 fillings and a tooth extraction! What is going on?!??!!?! I feel awful about it all too. They're not pretty white crowns like adults get (and thankfully not as expensive)-- they're SILVER and oh so notisable. They just blast the message "my mom didn't teach me good dental habits". Ugggg

But Reese did great. Last week he had 2 of the crowns put on and did amazing. No crying- very cooperative and patient. Today we went back because he had an absessed tooth so they had to extract it and then filled 2 teeth while they were at it. He cried a bit when they gave him the shot but after it was all over he said "That was awesome!". I guess he was amazed they could take a tooth out so fast. And the weirdo liked to be numb! In 2 weeks, we finish off with the last 2 crowns and we give them the rest of our money (which has turned out to be a lot!!).

Here's some pics of the work being done and the cool dr that we just bought a car for. We both really like Dr Carlos- he looks about 21 and is so good with Reese! Hopefully we get him again next time.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

I baked!!!

I don't bake.. but in my effort to save some money, I thought I should actually make cupcakes for Reeses class rather than buy them like I usually would.

And they weren't toooooooo bad. I used the kitchenaid and I even let the kids decorate them.. am I turning into a domestic diva or what. Okay you're right... the OR WHAT would be the correct answer. Anyways behold- my cupcakes.

And just for good measure- here's a cute pic of Rielly!

In my next life, I'm gonna be a bear!

Got this from Brenda:


In this life I’m a woman. In my next life, I’d like to come back as a bear.

When you’re a bear, you get to hibernate. You do nothing but sleep for Six months. I could deal with that.

Before you hibernate, you’re supposed to eat yourself stupid. I could deal with that too.

When you’re a girl bear, you birth your children (who are the size of walnuts) while you’re sleeping and wake to partially grown, cute cuddly cubs. I could definitely deal with that.

If you’re a mama bear, everyone knows you mean business. You swat anyone who bothers your cubs. If your cubs get out of line, you swat them too. I could deal with that.

If your a bear, your mate EXPECTS you to wake up growling. He EXPECTS that you will have hairy legs and excess body fat.

Yup… i’m gonna be a bear.

My V-Day Tax return present!

I have a wonderful husband!

There are 2 worldly selfish things that cost way too much that we can't afford but that I have always wanted.. a Coach bag and a Dyson.

In a few short days, I will officially be the proud owner of both. I have my Coach- Jon got me one for Christmas because he is the bestestestest guy ever!

And last night he let me pick out the Dyson vacuum I wanted. Of course this doesn't mean I'll be doing any more vacuuming than I usually do.. no that's not the case at all. I'm hopeing that for the price we paid for this puppy, it'll do it all on it's own. And dust and do dishes and bath my kids. I don't trust it to cook though-unless it can make me a mean chicken salad sandwich. Then we'll talk.

Here she is!

Dyson DC25 Ball All-Floors Upright Vacuum Cleaner

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

And on a happier note.. 6yrs ago today

I became a mom. Reese was born via emergency c-section Feb 11th 2003 at 2:35pm weighing 8lb10oz. And he was absolutely perfect. A definate perk of having him c-section was that large head of his was unbelievable round!
I was a few dates late and as huge as a house and completely miserable so my dr scheduled an induction for the 11th. I went in that morning with both my parents and I was the only one there which in Santa Maria, that was pretty amazing. The dr I absolutely did not want to deliver me was the one on call of course. But anyways they stripped me down and hooked me up and put in some pill that was supposed to soften the cervix and help get things ready to go. I was having no contractions, no dialation, nothing. So we walked around and tried to get things starting. An hr or two later, I started having very very small contractions but everytime I did, his heart rate would drop. It happened so fast- they put an oxygen mask on me and said they needed to prep me for a c-section. Jon was out getting lunch and I freaked out! I was begging to just keep trying but because I wasn't dialated and barely contracting, there was no way he could survive labor. So Jon was found and off to surgery I went. And it took all of like 10-15minutes for that booger to be born. Funny thing though- as I was being taken to the ER, the kid flipped and you could see my whole stomach warp. He turned himself (good thing i was numb)-- he was determined not to come out!!! So one they did get him, he was wrapped in the cord 3 times! No wonder he kept loosing oxygen. And man he was soooo mad! But absolutely perfect!
And that was a perfect day-- and here we are 6yrs later and I still feel too young to have kids- let alone one that will be baptised in 2 yrs!

He is such a smart kid. He loves computer games and video games. He's very curious and thinks he pretty much can fix anything and sure tries to! Of course he's also a typical boy and always wants things his way. The other day he said he knew he was getting a laptop for his bday (just a fun one that plays games) and when I told him he couldn't get on the internet with it, he said "how come I never get any technology?!". He cracks me up!!!
Anyways Happy Birthday my little man! We sure love you!!!

3 yrs ago today

Bear with me guys.. I'm writing this more for myself than for anyone else so if you want to read sad stuff, keep on keeping on.

Three yrs have past since I had to watch the first man I ever loved take his last breath. I didn't hear about it, I didn't get a call in the middle of the night.. no I watched it happen. I had to leave the room as they took the tubes out of him that have been his life support for over a week.. no that was just too much to see. I watched the monitor beep beep beep and then flat line. I watched him struggle for those last few breaths as his spirit and body disconnected. I saw his body cover in goosebumps and I saw him smile as he heard the voices of his grandkids on a tape as his father and other family members came to take him from his pain and suffering.

I have relived these memories over and over these last 3 yrs. I can still see myself walking in the room in the early afternoon of Feb 11th, 2006 to see my father lying in a coma for the first time since Christmas when things seemed to be looking up. I didn't want to go in. Thankfully Jon was with me because I was scared. Everyone kept saying it was okay-- and they were telling him that I was there. Can I just tell you... there is nothing like seeing the rock of your life lying in a hospital bed helpless and practically lifeless. There is nothing like that. It took everything I had to not run away. But I went in. And I held his hand. And I cried. I wanted to scream... to make him wake up. To tell us this was all a joke and he was just sleeping. Or to at least be able to tell us what was going on- and what we should do. Or to just say goodbye.

I remember the meeting we had. The joking and the laughing because we were all so tense and we knew what was coming next. And then the crying. We had to make a choice.. a choice NO ONE should ever have to make. I remember being able to hear all my siblings and in-laws pay tribute to the man and how we felt about what was about to happen. We were all there.. except little Chad who was on his mission in Japan. It's amazing how something like this brings people together... me from California, Gary also from California, Peggy from New Mexico and Jeremy from Tennessee. All in a days notise.

I remember going back up to his hospital room. All a zillion of us. Actually let's see.. there was 18 of us piled around his hospital bed. Anyone who was there can correct me if I'm wrong but I think this was when had a family prayer. We decided to let dad make the choice if he was ready to go or not. I remember a arse of a dr came in and said that he was terminal (yeah duh) and they could do a surgery but it would be torture. And right then my dad started chocking. He made the choice. And later that night he was given a blessing of release.

And then without more and more details, that leads us to where I began. That was the worst day of my life. And I hope it's stays the worst day because I couldn't bear to have to go through that again with anyone. I shouldn't have to. I shouldn't have had to do this. But we did.. 3yrs ago today. And in a weird way, I'm glad I remember. Because for me to forget means to forget who he was and why it hurts so much to loose him. The pain definately has eased up and it's easier to remember the good times as well and not just the memories of that awful day. But it's still there and will always be because with my own eyes, I saw the hands of God that day take one of his chosen back with him. And you know- while I know I'll see him again, it still sucks!

Saturday, February 7, 2009

I was tagged

By the lovely Christine:

I tag whoever wants to do this!

1. I grew up in a family of 11 children.

2. I lost the spelling bee in grade school with the word nylon (I said nilon..).

3. I can stick my fist in my mouth.

4. I met my husband on the internet

5. I have issues with zits.. they have to be popped (gross I know)

6. I have an addiction to diet sodas.

7. We named our son Reese after the troublemaker boy from Malcom in the Middle.

8. My dad, brother, and 2 nephews are all named James. Oh and Jons step-dad is James also. My kids also have 3 uncle Jeremys.

9. My teeth are worth more than probably my house but I couldn't get much trade-in value.

10. I always wanted to be a music ed teacher when I was younger but never pursued it long enough.

11. I was a nanny in Vermont, New Jersey and Colorado

12. I actually worked in computers before getting married

13. My dad died on my sons 3rd birthday

14. I've been thinking about going back to school when Rielly starts pre-k in August... just not sure doing what

15. I love Broadway musicals..always dreamed of being on one. HAHAH I also love showtunes and movies that are based off Broadway shows.

16. I am one of if not THE shortest person in my family. It's close

17. I'm not good at speaking in front of people. It terrifies me.

18. I'm a big bargain hunter.. if it can be purchased cheaper, I WILL find it.

19. I can't accept compliments. I don't know why. I have issues with thinking I am good at things so I tend to put myself down or make light of the situation when I am complimented. No matter what I do, I always assume someone can do it better.

20. I can be very sarcastic

21. I love people. If you're nice to me, I'm nice to you. But on the other hand, if I'm not fond of someone, I can't fake it.

22. I love texting. If you have something to say to me, might as well text me. I'll answer that way faster than calling back.

23. I want another baby... pretty darn bad. And I hate when people tell me that it'll happen when the time is right. Or if I stop trying, it'll happen. Yeah okay so stop trying to breath and let the air come to you... or stop trying to eat and hope your belly automatically gets full. Doesn't always work that way does it?

24. I don't like doing this because I feel weird talking about myself so much.

25. I hate being overweight ... hate it.