Friday, February 19, 2010

Always apologizing!!!

Once again.. I must apologize for the absence of the window into my life. Sadly there hasn't been much to see. Reese turned 7- that was very cool! He's growing up so fast!! That was also my dads 4th dead-day anniversary. So it's kind of a bitter/sweet time for me. Especially this yr with the re-marriage of my mom.
I have to admit since this is my blog and my life and I can write whatever I want right?
Well here it is.... I am having a hardtime with her marriage. Not because of her getting married. I think it's great. No one should be alone. But I am having a hardtime dealing with the circumstances around it and the big seperation it has caused in our family and the man she married. And contrary to what I've been told and what people think, it is NOT MY FAULT! I don't like her husband. I tried. But I don't. I can't be faulted for that. We can't love everyone right? I don't agree with a lot of things that have been said and done. And I refuse to support something I don't believe in. And because of this, I am the bad guy. But I do support the life my mom had with my dad. And I support the family they raised. I'm tired of being someone to blame. I'm tired of feeling bad that I feel this way. It has affected me far more than people think and as much as I don't want to, I am going to have to remove myself from the situation until I get to the point that I don't care anymore.
So I'm sure this doesn't make sense.... but if nothing else, take this with you. We will never fully understand or comprehend the affects and impact we have on others whether good or bad.
So for this I will not apologize for.. I will not be sorry for standing up for what I believe in. But I'm sorry this post is a downer.

Got this far? Good for you!!!!!

Oh a better note, I found a new hobby. COUPONING!!!!! So hopefully soon, I'm going to be able to post my huge savings I've been having at grocery stores. I love it!! We have saved so much money on food and toiletries.... so really its more of an obsession than a hobby!

And on the weightloss front- I've lost 6lbs and Jon 12lbs. Stay tuned on Tuesday when we have our next weigh-ins!

And on a real good front.. my sister Amber married Josh and they will soon be moving to Texas!!! I am excited because she will be closer to me.. just a short plane ride away. And she still likes me:)

1 comment:

Kris said...

Sista- I hear ya! I had to do the same thing with my life & I've never regretted it. You know what I've been through.... Time doesn't heal it all, but it does make it easier to deal with. You are a star- don't ever let anybody tell you different.

And if sometimes you do feel like a trouble-making stinker, you're in good company because I'm one of those too!