This week has been a wake up call for Jon and I in terms of learning to forgive. Not just learning how but getting to the point where we actually WANT to forgive the offender and then making the steps to do so. Our situations were different but equally important because neither of us could truely be happy until we dealt with our issues. I feel Jon is a lot stronger than I when it comes to letting go but I know it was a struggle for him and I am truely glad he was able to have that change of heart. I have a tendancy to hold on to things longer and have a tendancy to hold grudges but I want to let go and forgive so it's something I am working really hard on. It's been nice to have an amazing husband willing to listen and work through these feelings with me. I am blessed!!!
While reading up on forgiveness and trying to help myself, I came across this article that I really enjoyed and if you are struggling with this sort of thing, maybe it will help you too.
"When a deep injury is done to us, we never recover
until we forgive." -Alan Paton
Depending on your circumstances, forgiveness may seem impossible
to you right now. You've probably endured a lot of heartache and
pain while going through this process and the blame and or guilt
that you may be experiencing can keep you stuck from moving forward.
Whether you blame the other person or have guilt and you beat
yourself up over it, learning to forgive will put you on the right path.
It will be a gift you give to yourself.
Even though you may not feel capable of forgiveness right now; the
sooner you do this...the sooner you will...let go for good. You have to learn how to forgive the other person. But...first...you have to forgive yourself!
If you've made mistakes, forgive yourself and go on. There is nothing you can do now to change the past, but you can affect your future.
Forgiving yourself takes the pressure off of you for not being perfect.
And, it gets rid of guilt. You must learn to forgive yourself before you can forgive others.
We are all on a journey through life. Sometimes we make mistakes, which is part of a normal process on this journey. The mistakes that we make can result in painful experiences; these are the "lessons of life." But, it is through these trials that we learn the most.
The key is learning something from what has caused you pain so as not to repeat the same mistakes again. Walk away from this situation with the knowledge that you are stronger and smarter. Forgiving will open that door.
Second, forgive him or her. If you don't, you will be holding onto the past.
You may carry anger and resentment around with you which will hurt you...more than them.
Harboring negative emotions can make you bitter and resentful. It can and will permeate all areas of your life and it makes it more difficult to enjoy today.
Not forgiving keeps you trapped exactly where you don't want to be...
holding onto memories of the past. Every time you begin to think
of this person; what they did or didn't do, what you said or didn't say, consciously release them from your mind. Let these thoughts go and fill your mind with thoughts of goodness and the things that you are looking forward to experiencing in your life.
Gaining control of your thoughts, releasing all of the negative
memories and releasing all of the imagined confrontations you could have with this person will be the beginning of letting go of what is behind you and moving on to a better future.
You can't change the past but you can make a significant difference in how you approach what's ahead of you. Stay focused on the positive.
Stay focused on what you want, not on what you had that didn't work.
Once you find forgiveness you will regain control of you life. It's your choice!